She’s been working on “getting the F over it.”

Paige Spiranac was a professional golfer before she became an influencer and Sports Illustrated Swimsuit model. When thinking about competing today, she admitted the idea of playing seriously intimidates her.

On May 29, Spiranac opened up on her Instagram Stories about her tendencies on the golf course and the driving range.

“There are two types of people in this world: people who love to practice and the people who love to play and compete. I am in that first group,” she said. “I love practicing. There is nothing more that I enjoy than going to the range for hours and just beating golf balls, chipping, putting. I live for that, and I’ve always enjoyed that, and I never really enjoyed competing and playing.”

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“If I could just make a career out of practicing, then [it’s a] totally different story. And I know other people hate practicing and they can just turn it to a different level when they play and compete,” she added.

She confessed she wants to learn from those kinds of players. “If you’re the type of person who loves to compete and loves keeping score, what is your mentality? When you go out there, what do you think? What is your purpose? What drives you?” she asked. “Let me into your insight, because people truly thrive as soon as there is money on the line or they’re keeping score or it’s some kind of competition. People just have that switch.”

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She went on to speak to the players like her who freeze up at the idea of competition and shared her form of exposure therapy that has helped her in her practice sessions.

“If you’re like me where you love to practice but then as soon as you get on the golf course [and] you have to keep score, if there’s a little bit of pressure, you crumble, here’s what I have been doing: it’s basically exposing yourself to things that make you uncomfortable,” she said. “As soon as someone would write my score down, I would get so incredibly anxious and I would tell them not to do that. Now I have other people keep my score [or] I keep my score.”

“So I’m really keeping myself accountable and also just forcing myself to see the scores—the good scores, the bad scores—to realize that it’s really not that bad and it’s not that big of a deal, and to just honestly get the F over it,” she concluded.